The Water Tastes Like Burning

So, as most of you know, I was in Columbus, Ohio from sunday through tuesday visiting the Ohio State University women's studies grad program. I forgot how nasty the tap water is there. I need to invest in a Brita water filter or something. Anyway, the professors are great, the program looks really awesome, and the students I will be studying with are really cool people (especially Arcenia, who not only recognized my Thor's Hammer right off, but is also a Pagan herself). I'm dreading the next two years a whole lot less than I was before I left. I'm still tired and want to be done with school, but if I have to go for two more years, I could do a lot worse than OSU.

The guy who drove the shuttle van that took me from the hotel to the airport on Tuesday said something that made me think. We were talking about all of the places I'd lived (Ohio, then Wyoming, then Idaho, back to Wyoming for school, and now back to Ohio) and he said something like "So you've come full circle!" Well, that's not exactly how I see it. I hadn't realized it until he said that, but I'd been subconsciously thinking of this whole situation as indicitive of my inability to escape. I'm stuck in a rut. I fucking hated Wyoming the first time I was here, and I tried to escape, but it sucked me right back here. Now the same thing is happening with Ohio. I keep trying to tell myself that my life situation is so much different now than it was when I left at 13 (for example, I'm not stuck in the middle of parental drama), but deep down I just don't believe it. I kinda feel like a failure.

And now, for something completely different....

Mulder, The Hands of Fate!


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Originally uploaded by Raksha38.